Today we celebrated my dad's birthday. He turns seventy one today. It's kind of crazy. Most people's grandparents are that age but here comes my dad, still kicking. He has still looked lively and healthy all these years. He hasn't really changed although he has shrunk from age, as has my mom. We went to this old restaurant just across the street from our house that has been there for ages. I for one was just ready to have real authentic Chinese food just like the old days before I went off to college. Being in a college town means dealing with sad imitations of what is supposed to be Chinese, Indian, or any other type of ethnic cuisine outside of burgers and BBQ. I ate my fill and it was glorious. My dad literally ordered around twelve or so dishes and it couldn't have made me happier. While we were eating, the rest of the family that were there talked about life, marriage, and just everything to get us caught up with each other. One cousin is on her way to becoming a nun and in only a few months she'll be gone to Michigan just like that. I'll be sad when that day comes. I was considering telling her that I like guys before she left, because time with her is limited and I think we've become much closer over the years. Another cousin is pregnant and the rest of the family is absolutely thrilled. I was too. It'll be so wonderful and I can't wait. All the while, a television showed the Knicks versus Celtics playing and all of us rooted for Jeremy Lin. I mean, we don't love him just because he's Asian, but because he's a ballin Asian. Just talking about all these things just made me love these moments. I really do love my family and I really am blessed. After this, I went grocery shopping with the parents even though I could have done it alone. I just wanted their company, and this just really made me appreciate them.
I came back today to college town in a more rickety van than the one I broke down in, and am just glad to have a car. However, it's that time again when I get super horny. Man, to be honest I kind of like being horny all the time but at the same time it's killing me because I'm pretty sexually frustrated. I really considered just jumping into the fray and becoming a horny manslut for a while because I really am that horny. I know it would be terrible for me since I'm not that kind of person, but really a future with Hand Solo is pretty unappealing and sometimes I think it's a better alternative than still being alone after all these years until I can really find somebody. In other news, I literally spent an hour on YouTube watching dudes making out. Is that still keeping up with lent since I swore off porn? In any case, I need to do something about this situation, because I think I hit a new low, but I'm not sure. I felt a little pathetic reflecting on all this. So obviously I'm the coolest person I know. I'm going to go bury my dignity in a place no one can find it now.
-C.C.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Not Planning for the Future, Partying Instead
I swear I'm going to focus on what my plans are for the future right when I finish this post. And after I work out a little bit. At 1:30 in the morning. It's cool. I've only had four hours of sleep. But it's okay because this whole month of March I have no tests. But then the first week of April I have three tests to worry about. I know that's going to screw me over but really I'm feeling fine right now at least. Anyway, this Friday I literally traversed all over my college town just hanging out with people. Going to a documentary thing with some people, touring a nifty recycling center, attending a few birthday shindigs that night, and then staying awake until six in the morning watching scary movies and hanging out even more. Then waking up at nine in the morning to tow my sorry manvan to Houston to get fixed up. Sad. But here I am in Houston, here doing Spring cleaning with the parents and celebrating my dad's birthday. Sure I'm exhausted but really I don't regret it too much. Being here with them really does do me good since they make me confront what I have to do for the future instead of my alternatives of not doing anything at all and silently panicking about them. Really. That is what I do with my future plans and partly why my graduate application is still very much unfinished. However, now that I've talked some plans over with my parents now I actually have to do them. Starting now. Fantastic.
My whole Friday night was really interesting because I managed to do everything that I was hoping to do. I mean, going to two birthday parties, a scary movie night and other stuff all without a car? I think that's impressive. I know I told myself to really choose which things deserve my time the most but really I think this time was alright even though I know I missed some good things from splitting up my time. The one birthday party I went to was just a slopfest with beer pong going and people smoking all over the house. Yuck. What was interesting was that I was dressed kind of nice and I was riding with some friends and one pretty girl who I hadn't met before. She was cute and all the while I was wondering if maybe I could talk to her more and see what would happen. For a while I thought she might have been into me. I even thought that maybe she whispered to her friend that she thought I was hot. That really made my night. That being true or not, I instantly became extremely awkward talking to her. WOMP WOMP. There was actually another guy talking to her that was much more charismatic and I was just a tad bit jealous. Fortunately for me the pretty girl pre-gamed too much with tequila so I was lucky enough to find out my awkward attempts to woo her weren't the end of the world. She ended up passing out on the ride back home. Haha, that's college romance for you. So sure, I'm not straight but when did I start liking girls? There were a bunch of gay guys at the same party too. The birthday girl at the party apparently has a bunch of gay friends, who I found out really loves having her boobs fondled by these gay men. And when I say fondled, I mean clamping on the nipples and groping actions being done. Still, everyone was pretty drunk here so no harm done? There was this one gay guy who was in the military and was showing off his tattoos that I thought was just so hot. On one hand, he was a soldier, is a red head, and had a sexy red beard. On the other hand, he was kind of short and his mannerisms and voice really gave away the fact that he prefers penis. But really I did not mind at all because if I fazed out his voice and just saw him standing in a room, I really was tempted to go make out with him. I think it's just because he was a red head. Seriously.
On another note, I've decided to maybe start doing things with Red. I mean, I've been whining about him forever and really, I think I'm just kind of ready to do something and just feel something. Am I doing the right thing? I know I want to save what I got for someone special, but really just cuddling up and making out with someone is what I really kind of want right now with somebody I can find attractive and promising I guess. It just seems like the signs in my life just point to why not? And if everything turns out to be a huge and terrible plane crash, I'll be okay, because I'm young and I just got to get out there right? I just hope I don't re-read this post in the future and say, "Damn you past self, you've screwed me over once again!" because really, I do that to myself way too often as it is.
-C.C.
My whole Friday night was really interesting because I managed to do everything that I was hoping to do. I mean, going to two birthday parties, a scary movie night and other stuff all without a car? I think that's impressive. I know I told myself to really choose which things deserve my time the most but really I think this time was alright even though I know I missed some good things from splitting up my time. The one birthday party I went to was just a slopfest with beer pong going and people smoking all over the house. Yuck. What was interesting was that I was dressed kind of nice and I was riding with some friends and one pretty girl who I hadn't met before. She was cute and all the while I was wondering if maybe I could talk to her more and see what would happen. For a while I thought she might have been into me. I even thought that maybe she whispered to her friend that she thought I was hot. That really made my night. That being true or not, I instantly became extremely awkward talking to her. WOMP WOMP. There was actually another guy talking to her that was much more charismatic and I was just a tad bit jealous. Fortunately for me the pretty girl pre-gamed too much with tequila so I was lucky enough to find out my awkward attempts to woo her weren't the end of the world. She ended up passing out on the ride back home. Haha, that's college romance for you. So sure, I'm not straight but when did I start liking girls? There were a bunch of gay guys at the same party too. The birthday girl at the party apparently has a bunch of gay friends, who I found out really loves having her boobs fondled by these gay men. And when I say fondled, I mean clamping on the nipples and groping actions being done. Still, everyone was pretty drunk here so no harm done? There was this one gay guy who was in the military and was showing off his tattoos that I thought was just so hot. On one hand, he was a soldier, is a red head, and had a sexy red beard. On the other hand, he was kind of short and his mannerisms and voice really gave away the fact that he prefers penis. But really I did not mind at all because if I fazed out his voice and just saw him standing in a room, I really was tempted to go make out with him. I think it's just because he was a red head. Seriously.
On another note, I've decided to maybe start doing things with Red. I mean, I've been whining about him forever and really, I think I'm just kind of ready to do something and just feel something. Am I doing the right thing? I know I want to save what I got for someone special, but really just cuddling up and making out with someone is what I really kind of want right now with somebody I can find attractive and promising I guess. It just seems like the signs in my life just point to why not? And if everything turns out to be a huge and terrible plane crash, I'll be okay, because I'm young and I just got to get out there right? I just hope I don't re-read this post in the future and say, "Damn you past self, you've screwed me over once again!" because really, I do that to myself way too often as it is.
-C.C.
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