On Tuesday, life was pretty crummy since I just am really bad at coordinating stuff with my friends and parents. Just really bad. I haven't even finished my graduate school app. Really awful huh? I got news from the mechanic that my car is absolutely ruined. The transmission was just done for. I had to mediate with the parents to see what to do with it, which includes towing it back to Houston and all that jazz. Man. Now I feel like such a jerk to my parents for letting this happen because this is a very serious and expensive problem. Also, I keep on aggravating my mom with the fact that I don't keep in contact with her. Gawd I'm a mess. I later find out that I did awful on a test for one of my classes leaving me even more in the dumps. I then take a nap only to miss hanging out with friends which was kind of supposed to be the highlight of my day. Then I have this huge amount of time where I try to do work for all the things I have to do and I don't do them. I actually just surf on Hulu for five hours and don't do a thing. So much for keeping up with Lent. Man. It was a not stellar day. On the plus side, I literally had maybe over eleven hours of good sleep. It actually made things seem not so awful.
Wednesday turned out to be not too fantastic since I had class then lunch with Mick. This turned into an awkward lunch date. I don't know, I just didn't have anything to say and looking back on it I was just acting super awkward. That actually happened all day. Sometimes I have days like that. However, we did play with puppies so that was a plus. Afterwards, I actually got a few good things done for my classes which made me feel good about myself. I then proceeded to go and have free pizza somewhere in a park kind of far away and play frisbee. All was well until I had a bike accident and broke my bike. I was way out in the boonies so I had to go walk a ways back to where I needed to be. I still managed to go to a fun meeting and hang out with friends that really made me feel not as bad about my circumstances but really I have had some bad luck these days. What was weird was that I tried to find a friend at a nearby coffeeshop close to my place and bumped into a girl named Kate. This girl was a really nice and interesting girl that I met freshman year and we kind of connected, only to never be seen again. Oddly enough, she hangs around my apartment complex quite a bit and it was just amazing that she fondly remembered me after all this time. We exchanged numbers and maybe we'll be the best of friends? I really think that fate propels us although I am a huge proponent of free will too. I guess I have a sort of balance of it in my head. I feel like everything happens for a reason. So when all these bad things happened to me, I wondered what this meant for my life. As bad as these things can be, I'm really not as upset and miserable as I can be. I just think that there is always an opposite reaction to everything that happens to you in life. So the thing is what now? Life is funny sometimes, but never a dull moment.
-C.C.
