Today was still pretty unproductive. I just can't go to sleep at night so I wake up at noon and just make life a little less pleasant for my parents who think I'm a night owl bum with an internet addiction. Whooooops. I mean, I really need to work on grad school applications but at least I have the recommendation part taken care of. I THINK I'm having a productive winter break...but I want it to be better for sure. I guess I just have a nagging feeling I'm not doing what I could be doing in terms of living out my life. I've always had this rush to try and live out life to the fullest. Every moment has to be fulfilling in a way. I don't know, it's a very taxing way of thinking.
Anyway, I went to help at my parent's office and did learn a little bit and then went to the gym where I spent two and a half hours there. A little extreme on my part. I kind of didn't want to go home and I also wanted to tire myself out so I can sleep earlier. I thought that was a little concerning but it all might just be in my head. Also, I've recently realized that I REALLY cannot spend too much time living with my parents anymore. It's just that at first I thought being a bum mooching off my parents wouldn't be the WORST thing to happen to me but now that I've stayed here two weeks and a half I can't live here permanently that's for sure. My parents do help me keep motivated and on track of my priorities which is something I had waaaaay too much trouble with living on my own. So I guess it all works out. Also, how the hell am I going to find a boyfriend/girlfriend while living with the parents??? Ugh. I don't even get any action when I'm on my own in my own element. Oh well, FOREVER ALONE. Good night.
-C.C.
