I really just love that saying. I'd squeeze it into more of my daily speech if I could. Really. Anyway, today was a little bit of a letdown just because I went to bed so early and everything and then I tossed and turned until four in the morning. Resetting your sleep schedule is just a nightmare. Haha....yeah, being punny. So I wake up at one in the afternoon and then I get to work at three. Afterwards I'm supposed to meet my old friend who I came out to recently, let's call her Lissa, at a Mediterranean place and she cancels because she's way too sleepy at seven p.m. because of her awful sleep schedule. Wat. I was pretty understanding since I have the same problem sometimes but seriously, that's a load of bull. I don't want to sound like a hypocrite but we were supposed to meet up at 8 p.m. She knew it too though and apologized. I was disappointed but we rescheduled and it's all in the past now. Not too much got done again today but all that work in the gym surprised me a little. My stomach got a little flatter. Awesome! At least the work I'm doing has some tangible results now.
Outside of that, I keep on fantasizing about shacking up with Red. I don't know if I'm just that horny or it's because he's a moderately successful person and I somehow want to be close to that success, not him. Either way I keep on flashing back to the time he talked dirty to me and to be honest that was hot regardless of what I thought of him. Anyway, it's almost time for school to start again...in approximately a week and a few days from now. Wat. I don't understand. AND I have awful classes right before I graduate. My major WOULD stick it up my butt, in a bad way, right before I graduate. Really.
In other news, this new year, I've decided to really try to slowly or not so slowly get out of my comfort zone to meet a guy. I don't really know what that entails. I mean, I wanted to check out the LGBT group on campus and then I don't know...put a picture up on Grindr?? Um....talk to more gay/bi guys like me? Take the initiative more? I might be completely gay and maybe I am having a hard time facing the fact that I'll never have the traditional heterosexual family unit I've always wanted. Huh, oh well, enough of that for the night.
-C.C.
