One kind of sad little note was that I spent almost all night last night on OkCupid looking at Red's profile there and others' as well. I spent way too much time on it updating and all that jazz. It was actually so much more fun than I had intended too. I keep on thinking maybe I should ask him out on a date. My main motivation being that (this is going to sound a little pathetic) it seems the website thinks we're a really high match. Sometimes I'll think of him and then I'll immediately get extremely turned off by him because of how strongly he propositioned me a while ago. Every time I try to consider him I think of how much of a penis monster he was to me so to speak and I feel ashamed that I'm even considering him in that way. The thing is I think I'm a bit too much of a coward to go out and message anybody else right now. Jesus. It feels that if I ever did go and ask him I'd maybe be settling for him in a way because I don't want to be treated like some dimepiece. Still...why do these stupid thoughts keep popping up? I think my common sense is inherently broken.
Anyway, this video made me feel good about life in general. It's wonderful.
