A thought or two...

       Today was still pretty unproductive. I just can't go to sleep at night so I wake up at noon and just make life a little less pleasant for my parents who think I'm a night owl bum with an internet addiction. Whooooops. I mean, I really need to work on grad school applications but at least I have the recommendation part taken care of. I THINK I'm having a productive winter break...but I want it to be better for sure. I guess I just have a nagging feeling I'm not doing what I could be doing in terms of living out my life. I've always had this rush to try and live out life to the fullest. Every moment has to be fulfilling in a way. I don't know, it's a very taxing way of thinking.
      Anyway, I went to help at my parent's office and did learn a little bit and then went to the gym where I spent two and a half hours there. A little extreme on my part. I kind of didn't want to go home and I also wanted to tire myself out so I can sleep earlier. I thought that was a little concerning but it all might just be in my head. Also, I've recently realized that I REALLY cannot spend too much time living with my parents anymore. It's just that at first I thought being a bum mooching off my parents wouldn't be the WORST thing to happen to me but now that I've stayed here two weeks and a half I can't live here permanently that's for sure. My parents do help me keep motivated and on track of my priorities which is something I had waaaaay too much trouble with living on my own. So I guess it all works out. Also, how the hell am I going to find a boyfriend/girlfriend while living with the parents??? Ugh. I don't even get any action when I'm on my own in my own element. Oh well, FOREVER ALONE. Good night.

-C.C.

Absolutely Nothing

That's what I did today. I mean, I woke up at two p.m. and then sat on my hands until five p.m. thinking if I should be productive or not. I'm not kidding. I take long amounts of time doing nothing trying to think up if I should do something. Kinda weird. Anyway, I went to the gym and then visited an old friend and we talked about futures and just graduating. I peeved my parents by being a bum today but that's okay because I'll do better tomorrow hopefully? Also, I REALLY want a six pack. Just can't seem to get any closer though....
Good night.

-C.C.

The New Year

Today was rather unproductive. I stayed up until seven a.m. this morning and it was a bit miserable. It was hard to muster up that stamina. I woke up at noon and had five hours of solid sleep. So understandably I'm terribly tired. And it seems I'm also a bit horny right now just to throw that out there. I don't regret what I did because I spent the whole night just talking to an old friend who is an important friend of mine who I have been neglecting as of late. Terrible I know. We have amazing conversations and we literally spend most of the time talking about nothing and laughing. It's wonderful. However, a part of the conversation went to my sexuality and I just casually admitted that I was bi. Just like that. No drama, no anything. And to my surprise so did she. It was just the craziest thing. I wasn't sure if I was going to tell her before but seriously this has really been a milestone for me. She may not have been the first person I came out to but it is one of the most notable ones. It was simple and easy and then we went on the laugh about something related to strippers. I also got two new suits today that make me look extremely sexy. All in all, the second day of the new year didn't disappoint although I do have a huge pimple on my forehead. Not important. Ish.

-C.C.

Ruh-Roh, 2012

Whoa, I've been gone for a while, but that's okay because I've ditched this blog for a whole year and a half once and so by all accounts this is totally fine haha. In any case, I have a just a small feeling that this year is going to be a good year. I'm not sure what that means, but I think that is all I really need. Things are gonna great and I'm going to MAKE them great. Somehow. So, to kick things off, I think I'm going to start blogging every day this year! Let's DO IT.

The first day of the new year I slept SUPER late since I celebrated with the family and woke up late like the lazy kinda guy I am. However, I quickly made up for it by being extremely productive doing some spring cleaning and really just helping my parents work around the house and tidying things up. I'm extremely tired but at the same time this was a great way to spend the new year and I feel just GREAT. Let's see what else is in store this year.

-C.C.